Well that went well

So work was boring, i hate doing nothing the only time that we we're busy was when we had to serve food. then it was crazy cause all the residents are in there rooms so it was crazy. And then i went in the med room to count with sandie/ and i saw there was a letter for me in the box so i opened it its a apsentee notice, it was for 1/8/12 and 11/11/11 i wasnt even on the scedual for 1/8/12 and 11/11/11 i called her a day before and told her my grad mother was dieing and thats why i wasnt in work. im not signing shit and if she wasnt to pursue it anymore ill go head to head with her ERRRR.....she makes me so mad sometimes. okay im done.

Soooo

So your ex boyfriend asks you to be his friend on fb and when you broke up it was on bad turms, what do you do? I accepted, just because i was curious, i new that he had a child (that was the reason that we split up, he cheated typical guy) andi wanted to see what it looked like boy or girl and what not, shes a girl and shes so cute, doesnt look anything like him but w/e she must be his!? So i messged him last night,  idk he doesnt have to answer it i just said "hi. havent seen your face in a long time, your daughter is beautiful. hope your doing well" So he doesnt have to reply or anything i just though it was a nice things to do. its not like i have any feelings for him or anything and i dont want to get back together with him but it would be nice just to talk i guess. i dont hate him anymore or anything, it was just hard on me when i found out he cheated, but its been over a year so im fine now. Anyways, work tonight was fine, i like working with jess alot more then april just because april doesnt no what shes doing and jess does. work was more smoth thank god! Okay well i have to get up and get ready to go to work today :/ ill write more later. oh i hate when uncle is deployed. hes gonna be gone a year this time. thats a long time especially since they just had a baby, and i guess ryan is taking it really hard :C it makes me really sad. oh one more thing I HATE WHEN PEOPLE DIE! My uncle same passed away yesterday morning. :/ the furneral is tuesday. he past away one day shy of nanas 2  month mark. :/

Hate when we are short staffed UGH

So tonight we have 4 girls on, are you kidding me UGH i hate when we are short staffed when i worked for like 5 days in a row we had more girls then we knew what to do with but now that im trying to get full time there are none and we get stuck with four its so crazy and then the 11-7 people get mad at us cause other people arent in bed, well sorry there isnt enough hands to go around  maybe if the person that was scedualed to come in came in when she was suposto then we would have everyone done, i didnt leave work untill 11:35 tonght when im suposto leave at 11, 11:15 at the latest yeah okay. i didnt even have my computer work done till 11:30 thats why i got out so late its so ridicules, they need to scedual better and if someone calls out call someone in because its so dangerous for us to work with only 2 people on one side, people try to get out of bed by themself and sometimes we cant even get people into bed. UGH its so annoying, and if the state came in there would be some big problems its a safty thing. okay enough about that. Im so tired i didnt get very much sleep last night, im going to shut off the light in the middle of the living room/ kitchen cause i cant sleep with it on i hate it. so if they dont like it to bad, i cant sleep, and speaking of sleep its calling my name. ill write more tomorrow.
<3Katie

I guess this is life

I really want to go to hawaii, like ALOT! I need money though :/ I want to see my family and yes i just want to be warm again! lolI also hate guys, the are so dumb. I hate that they say one thing and then do another. I was going to go out twice this week with two different guys and they both cancled on me. UGH i just hate guys, one of the guys just called me and watched me to come over later tonight, could you say booty call. i just hate that i wish i could find a nice guy thats not gonna just want me for sex.
So im still looking on how to get a flight attendent job i have to keep looking. also i need to get my own place i cant stand living at home anymore. its just so hard i hate that i pay rent and i still have to tell my parents where im going and what time ill be home, i hate that especially since i pay rent i really should have to do that.
i love working only 2 days a week but i dont no what im going to do when i have to work full time 5 days a week i think i might go crazy. lol
okay im done going to watch a movie or read before bed! Night

UGH

I really hate when a guy says one day, yeah we'll go out tomorrow and then texts you saying "oh i have to study but if you want to come over later" your pretty much asking for a booty call ugh i hate guys, :/
So nothing really happened today. i slept almost 9 hrs it was amazing! :D then I really didnt do anything till around 2ish i went to Danielles and played with jake :] he is so cute i love that little boy, im gonna have to start going over there more often cause i miss them! then i came home and adam text me and told me what was going on so then i just cleaned around the house and now im doing this. ugh what a day, hopefully tomorrow ill go out with codey, cause i really want to go out! :D

So yesterday i slept over aunties it was fun i havent dont that in a long time, we watched movies nothing scary like we usually do but its okay we had a good time, then this morning i woke up to nick crying cause he couldnt have something, ugh i hate when they do that. and when abby screams thats drives me crazy to. i stayed there most of the day. i came home around 4, i knew we wearnt doing anything today so i didnt really want to go home, but when i got home me and mum went to tilton and went shopping which was really nice. I told jake that i would think about talking to him again, i really dont no that cause he was just so mean to me last time that i dont no if i can even talk to him and like him again and i really like adam even though he might not feel the same. but anywho i bought a book today called the pregnancy project, it was on Dr. Phil and i dont watch dr. phil but it was on one morning and they wear talking about this book, i really think im going to like it! :D So nothing new other then that, ill write more tomorrow. :D

So im working only working like 2 days a week but omgoodness is it kicking my butt, but we wear short both days so we only had 2 girls on one side and three on the other and we had 12 each thats alot when we usually have like 7 or 8,  UGH but w/e i have like the next week off before i have to work again so its nbd :]
I wish life and relationship wear easy, but i guess whats why its life? I just want a nice guy that loves me. UGH sometimes i wish i could fast fwd and then you could go back, i just want to see what life holds for me you no.
UGH i hate when i think about my ex, i hate when i think of all the things that could have been or that should have been untill he blew it up, i hate when things dont go the way that i want to lol okay well im just really tired so ill write more tomorrow.

You never no whats gonna happen

So i told you i was gonna try and write in this everyday, so here i am! :D So its snowing out im not really excited about it, but w/e. I have to get up early tomorrow :/ tyler doesnt have a second midterm so i have to get him around 930 tomorrrow not really looking forward to that lol So this new guy i started talking to tonight, his name is jon hes 25 and he lives right down the road from me which i think is really funny :D But we will see i mean we just started talking so w/e and im still talking to adam kinda idk whats going on there, he doesnt seem to interested anymore and i just wish he would say that. I need to talk to him and see whats up. and codey well he just wants to get into my pants theres nothing elts to that. all i want is to find someone thats gonna love me for me and thats it, honestly is that to much to ask?
I miss my best friend, i wish her school wasnt so far away, i mean im greatfull its not so far but still 2 hrs both way thats a long drive just to visit, thats why when i go down to see family ill go visit her! Its just hard sometimes but thank goodness i got skype now! i just miss having her right down the street so if i really need her i can just drive over. okay okay enough with the pity party.
Work was crazy tonight, we wear short so there was only 2 and 2 when theres suposto be 3 and 3 lets just say it was a long night and no one got showers. lol i would really like to work in a hospital, i really need to look to see whats coming up for classes, cause i was talking to mels mom and she said that if i wanted to work in the ob part of the hospital, which i really want to do, then i would most likely have to have my LPN or my RN i just dont think i want to be an RN its alot of school and i just dont no if thats what i want to do the rest of my life thank goodness im yough. okay thats enough for tonight. Have a good night, drive safe!! <3

A new start

This is going to be a new start im really gonna try and start writing in this every night or morning. Everything is so different now. Nana passed away November 28th, 2011. that day will always be a part of me, thats the day everything changed. my life just feels different now, nothings the same. I have this hole in my heart and it wont go away, i mean i put on a smile and i look fine but inside it hurts. i mean there are times when yeah i am happy but its not the same as before. i just dont understand sometimes, i dont see how this is for a better life for anyone. This was the first person that im close to that ive lost like this, its not going to be my last and this may sound really bad but i wish to god that she wasnt the first person i had to lose, i miss her everyday, i think of her everyday and its never gonna go away :/ This year has just been so weird. I started the year going to school to get my LNA and i ended it with three jobs, and in between guys, sort of.

How do you no what you want to do with you life? Does anyone really no what they want out of life, i mean i no that i want to find someone thats gonna love me and want to get married and then im gonna have children. But what am I doing with my life now except working. i just feel like im not doing anything, i hate sitting around. I mean i love to read and sleep but i hate being bord, i hate just sitting at home doing nothing. i really need to go back to school. Thats what i need to do before the month ends; I need to find out if and when and how much classes are!!