oh my

I havent writen in like almost 20 days, and so much has happened.

I dont no where to start.

Lets me Ive been working a lot, hanging out with a really good friend taylor :] going to the gym, im still talking to brandon. :]

My ex might be moving home, i dont no if im happy for him or nourvous for myself. i just hope that me and brandon hit it off so i dont have to worry about anything lol OH we are moving, my parents are buying a house, im helping a little but we are buying a new house. Im so excited!! We can start moving in april 27th, if they get the money then thats the day they sign and we can start moving in that night if we wanted. I keep thinking of all the things i need to pack and its alot, like think of all the things in your house. all the things you have in cabnets and drawers its so crazy. Im gonna have to start soon lol

I wonder how the animals are gonna take it, i hope raven and jazzy and abby dont ever get out cause i wouldnt no where to look if they ran away lol im really sad kinda that we are leaving here cause this is where buster is and when we leave i wont be able to visit him anymore, and people will start to think im crazy talking to my dead dog.

omgoodness last night i worked 16hrs im so tired, i hate the scedualing. like they have seven on monday and one five thurday, they make  no since so im gonna try to get tomorrow switched for thursday so we will have six girls on both days i really hope i get it to cause im really tired, going to bed soon!

okay ill try and write tomorrow.

after all this time.

well i had a sorta good night up untill about 5 minutes ago. i hate how im over something and i really should be by now and then someone says one thing and it all comes rushing back
UGH ALK;JADFIJLASDFJLSADFJL;ASDFJA[SIJFKAWLK i just want to punch something or someone.

I got slaped tonight by a resednet lol she aparently didnt like what i was doing and she refused hers meds so i got slapped right acrost the face lol so i think we are going to be moving, if my parents get the hosue they want we will be in there by the end of april which is like less the 2 months. i just cant imagin not living here, i mean ive lived here for ten years that a long time. crazy.

ugh moments like these i wish my bestfriend didnt live so far away cause i miss her like crazy! okay well im done for tonight, im to mad to write any more lol
<3

a girls day....kinda

This is about 3/5/12 lol
So today was my day off...untill this weekend and i was suposto get up at like seven so i could go meet my phisical trainer but my dumb alarm didnt go off or i didnt here it and when i woke up my phone said 758 so i had to call pf and tell them i would rescedual which kinda sucks but i got to sleep for another hr and a half lol then i got up did the dishes watched a little tv folded laundry and some socks did my own laundry lol then i read my book i had to drop my brothers off so they could go look at a house my parents are thinking about buying and i needed to go to the bank then i came home took a shower (before going to the gym lol) then i met up with a girl is a really good friend named taylor and her boyfriend and we went to the gym and then we went out for dinner had a fun time, its so funny with her we can always make eachother laugh so much no matter wear we are i mean we wear in my car just waiting for hers to warm up and she had me crying i was laughing so hard! I just love that girl!

So yeah my parents are buying a house, im going to look at it tomorrow with my mom cause my father and brothers have already seen it and love it lol so im excited. i mean i love the house we live in now i mean ive lived here since i was nine but its going to be nice to have my own space and not to have my little brother have to walk through my room to get to his! privicy what i would pay for that! lol and i think it would be nice to live in an actual house not a trailer not that i dont love this house cause i do but it'll just be nice and warm lol

So boy: hes back at schoool so we arent talking as much cause hes always in the studio, i cant wait for may to get here, i hope we hit it off. i really want a relationship with somoene and he just seems like the perfect guy for me. yeah no.

I just finished the first season of one tree hill SO good lol now onto the second one tomorrow. Oh and i also filled out like 5 applications at LRGH so hopefully i get a call back or something cause that would be awesome, i just cant take the nursing home anymore its just braking my heart more and more everytime someone dies and i cant take it anymore.

okay im done. more tomorrow.

so i havent writtin in a few days kinda just tired and dont have the energy to do it lol aka being lazy :]

Ive come to relize that i hate long distent anything, wheather its relationships or friendships i like when someone is close so if i want to see them all i have to do is go over, I cant wait till may, thats when im meating this new boy, i hope everything works out im so sick of being single. i mean i dont want to get merried right away but i just want someone that i can tell everything to and be around and just have fun with cause all i do right now is work sleep and go to the gym and thats just sometimes except tomorrow im getting up really early and going to see a personal trainer so he/she can whip my butt into shape! :] im so excited!

So one of my good friends is moving home, she'll be here tuesday and im so excited. she lived in florida for like four years or something and ive only seen her like twice since so im really excited to meet up with her!

I really want to get that tattoo soon i need someone to designe it for me though cause i dont really no what i want yet i forgot to ask my gradfather the other night when i was there what kind of irsh crose her family had cause thats what i want on my foot that and her name, birthday and death on my foot. I miss her. tomorrow im making a list of things i need to do.

1. get up early and go to gym.
2. apply for doctors offices and hospitals from plymouth to concord.
3. Do laundry.
4. write my uncle a letter cause i miss him.
5. clean my room cause its bad lol
6. take my dogs for a walk cause they need it (except ill have to go into town cause we cant walk on our road its to snowy lol)

i think thats about it. oh and watch my red box movie that like 4 days overdo lol

so thursdays post was a little dramatic. me and my father had this big talk and i understand where hes coming now and he understands why i was so mad. but he tells me to tell him when i mad i cant cause all he does is yell and my dads a big guy 6'2" big guy around so hes a little scary sometimes not that he would ever hurt me but hes scary. but anyways im not moving out, im gonna save my money and then get a really nice place and they are buying a new place so we'll see what live brings us.

Ugh i have the hiccups i love but hate them lol

its raining out on top of the snow we got yesterday, ugh i have to work today and tomorrow and then i have monday off and that day cant come soon enought!

whats done is done and you cant take it back

Im moving out of my house. Ive decided this today that i cant live with my parents anymore.

Last night i couldnt go to sleep and i finially fell asleep around 230, so he calls me around 1030 no biggie w/e and im still really tired, so i stay in bed. now yesterday i couldnt leave because tyler my younger brother had a friend my dad doesnt trust over so i had to stay home and watch them, well i didnt do very much i did the dishes but not much else so today i got up around noon and my mom texts my dad saying "guess who just got up a noon" so he calls me saying why are you just getting up now when i called you two hrs ago and you could be doing things like folding laundry or doing the dishes which you should have done yesterday but no your just laying in bed being useless and if you dont like my rules then move out so i am.

UGH i hate parents sometimes, expecally since i pay rent im so sick of the bs. so im going to see an real estate agant tomorrow and get a studio appartment someonewhere or just a reguler appartment idc but im getting out of this house.